Outcast

Nothing terrifies me more than being alone in a whole bunch of people that I cannot feel involved.
I'd rather go out for walk alone, just me. I'd rather have my own discussion in my mind, I'd rather just stay in.

Though I never bothered to be involved but this now feels like hitting my lowest. Hate how it would make me sound so desperate but you think being alone is lonely? Being an outcast of all is the worst kind of lonely. How did I make myself compromise for these? Being the redundant, the unnecessary presence. Really?



I would rather be alone.
and curl up and sob.

I would rather just be with you :'(

This is how growing up feels like aye? Too vulnerable in my protected little space. Gotta be stepping out from my own comfort zone, little by little. I will be stronger after these, hopefully.