It’s so hard telling myself only to compete with myself and be my own enemy. So hard. How can I ever stop comparing myself with others? 

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What’s wrong with setting my walls so high that only the genuine ones are left?
I live with so little people. Every each of you, are so important to me that I cannot afford losing. You are special to me however I cannot expect the same. I cannot expect you to put me as important as how I see you.
Only these expectations, I’m left with disappointments. The more I’m getting them the more your importance and my self esteem are ceased.
I live with so little people, soon I’m expecting it to be even more little.
Maybe there are people who are meant to be alone after all. 

You’re just in between a replacement and being replaced. You’re an utter loser. 

This is self destructive.

But I’m still thankful.
I got myself all covered up most times. People get tired climbing up these walls sometimes. I never denied the fact that I really am a difficult person. But people who sticks around, will sticks around. I’m thankful for that.

Late night emotional post. Only happens when you’re not around to distract.